Why

what is the most powerful words,
why it is so powerful that can stop the addiction of ppl?
why it bond a jelously?
why it can change human attitude?
why thres a motivation to move forward and be more successful person?
why it can't gone but it keep showing?
why its so difficult to say it out or even type it out but sometimes when u say it out, its give u extraordinary feelings.
why its so powerful, it can make u feel full and thres a happiness and u become more brave to do something without hav a second thought.

Example of situation" when u r weak, but when that feeling appear in ur soul, u feel strong and u r refresh and ur spirit bcome strong and ur sickness can even cure quicker.

An answer to my past

Finally I found an answer.

Example: when a couple together, they spend alots of money and time together, but in the end, when they split out, the guy get mad and ask her to return everything to him.
But what is the most precious things u get when u spend time together?
Is the memories and times that matter much, even if she treat u badly but she realise ur existence and u need to know human time is important bcoz there is no 100% possibility they will live for another day and by that time u will regret for what u did if u didnt precious her time.

I aware of this answer when I was form 5.
It because my primary school life. when I was standard 1 I have best friend named Steven Ak Martin. Its wierd even after 8 years, but I still remember his full name.
I seldom or never treat him as good friend nor best friend. I always bully him and tease him as I like without knowing his feeling. There was a time when he was crying after get bully by upper class, I just stand there and watch, and my classmate scold me as a bad friend to him yet he treat me as his best friend.
Even when he ask me to help him, I always ask for a equivalent value. I even always ask him to hand-in my works or even buy foods.

After standard 4, he tell me he going to transfer. And I didnt celebrate with him. but he told me and my other best friend named Daniel Sebastian, "Please don't angry after I left, because we have to split out after all bcoz we have difference goal" .
At the christmas moment, he send a christmas card.
and the card say: "no matter wat happen between us, u r always my best friend" and he drew a lion king on the side.

I don't understand, last time he always say u r not my best friend bcoz I treat him badly.
But BUT WHY THE CARD SAY U R MY BEST FRIEND?

and I found the answer to my problem after somany years.
It was not how bad or good u treat a person. It was the time u spend and the memories(laugh/sad/happy together) u both made does matter.
A picture describe emotion and a words describe feeling.
when both combine its show that person was crying or very feel down when writing the card.

So I realise and I appreciate with whom I knew. I was totally different now and I learnt from my past. So I will not regret and to make sure this kind of situation won't happen again in future.

I have lost contact with him. If any1 knew his whereabout please tell me. thanks.

Assignment ! Assignment ?

ya thats the part of university students need to pass through. But luckily, I already handed in my assignment. What does matter is that every week I have assignment to do. Damn it sux to the max but this is life rite, we can't stop and turn back.

Life in Swinburne's Hostel

Quite normal, but I don't know why I over sleep for the past few days, like 10 hours of sleeping, maybe no motivation for me to wake up early. Actually I quite happy when I able to online through hostel's wifi. The hostel use DeConneXion (homepage http://www.danawa.net.my/) . Feel vomit sometimes bcoz not familiar with the surrounding air

My last day in Sibu

I will like to thanks to all my friends and I hope they know education is just start. SPM result is just like a key to the door. The real "feeling of study" is when you enter the Pre-U. If any of you who try to giving out your interest to study, PLEASE DON'T DO SO because this our only opportunity to gain the real experience of study life.

I was wondering why my heart or body not reject the decision I made. Because I used to be nervous or scare when I have to do something alone or new. After awhile, I thanks to God for giving me a brave and confident heart for me to move on instead of becoming a timid person.

My Path to Business Foundation

What inspire me to take business course its not because its easy or making money. Its my bloodline its full of business essence. I realize it since standard 5, when I was 11 years old I was able to do buy and sell by gaining profit of RM5. After UPSR or standard 6, I have total gain of RM50. By Form 1, I was able to gain RM100 , Form 2 was RM300 and lastly Form 3 RM500. I stop after form 3 because I need to concentrate on my studies. Futhermore, I need to control the money or else I will get possessed by money. After SPM or form 5, I was able to control myself from been possessed by money. Thats how the way I prove it even if I earning alot, but still money is not everything that can fulfill my desire.

Apart from that, I was able to learn words like negotiate , deal or no deal, and take it or leave it. Moreover, I can cope with the market price. For person who are amateur like me, I think business its not about gaining profit but also get to known more variety of people, by that we can improve the products to fulfill and let them realize we can improve and never lack behind.

My idol, my inspiration is Donald Trump's The Apprentice show. I always watch this series in every seasons

I learnt few words from him but I forget to jot down it, but theres only 1 I remember till now, its NO BUSINESS IS BETTER THAT BAD BUSINESS.

Lastly thanks God for been with me all the while, my parent, my siblings and my friends. Even we are staying far apart and can't see each other often, but my mind and heart its burn with the sweet memory we spent. As long I still here, I will never forget any of you.

SPM result

I happy and 1st of all I want to Thanks God and my family for supporting me, with them I score good result. I love and appreciate for what I get in this result slip

CABAL Online

Must try the new MMORPG. Visit the main site http://www.cabalsea.com/
ya Open beta today .

PCDVD [Need For Speed: ProStreet]

Play in Speed track, my car run out from road, car damaged badly ><

FORD GT

LAMBORGHINI MURCIELAGO LP640

CHEVROLET CORVETTE C6

My 3 super duper sport cars, I love this game so much coz the graphic is awesome. Also the career mode/story mode is long so it is reasonable to buy. I rate this 10/10 overall.

March Wallpaper

anime wallpaper again haha XD

Received P License

yippe ^.^ ehhehe, finally got it juz now. Now I can vrooooooooooooom all the way out. haha

My 1st attempt

Feel bored at home, so my hand get itchy and create this low quality stick figure short video clip haha, seriously I simply make this, Im sure I can do better than this 100x haha.

JPJ Test (Anda telah Lulus)

^*$%^*%*%*( I don't know how to express my feeling *&__*( this the best day of my life, also today is ChaP GoH MeH, double happiness today. 1st of all I want thanks God for giving me confidence that I can do it and I want thanks to all my friends whom giving me good luck and support me. Without them, I don't think I can do it. Heck, I want thanks to Mr.Ngu my formal Science teacher and also my driving tutor. He has teaching me more than 12hours and not overcharge for it. He is the best teacher after all, tats mean I pick the best tutor. Thanks to my family for supporting me to the end. :D hahaha Thanks every1 !!!!! btw my jpj marks 17/20. Kidda good for a kid like me whom always nervous :D lol

First day of School [Form 6]

awwww no more gaming like madman anymore, gezzz neeed to sleep earlier again and wake up early in the morning around 5.45am coz need in time to school b4 6.50am. Lame lame I hate my time been control for this..waaa headache..I need to get used to it 1st so I won't feel tired :X

Going to hall and listen to the talks bla..bla..bla about muet and pengajian am. hear till wan to pee..zZzzz I hate listening coz its boring maybe I'm sleepy

All subject freaking hard, as u know, the teachers all say need memorize tat n this ..walaaoo how to score the exam like tat T_T . Shit ^&%^*$^*$^*%(* I hate it damnit

no pics coz stupid streamyx lag all day long =.=

PCDVD [Call of Duty 4: Modern Warfare]

Very short campaign single player. Just play 4-5 hours already done the single player mode. I try to join the multiplayer but my keycode is either blacklisted or been hijacked. haiz I though this game can go for a days but finish within a day ...sienz no much games to play liao... I rate this 10/10 for this game, Seriously even u r newbie or noob in shooting games, this game giv the best gameplay coz alot autosave in quest mode

PCDVD [BioShock]

This game goosebump me hella many times, this is the only game I cant continue playing it coz really scary ya' know. I will play it when I got good mood or else I will get heart failure lol. I no yet finish this game therefore I will not rate it 1st till I finish it. Maybe coz of the undead corpse and the sound of whispering around the corner make u feel their existing but actually they are not. Sometimes,they poop out in nowhere to giv a good face2face with u...lol I hate tat situation the most.
This game graphic is hella uber cool, but I only able to play it in medium setting coz high setting will make my it hang then screen turn black =.=
The Most creepy shooting game I ever play in my life, even Half-Life not that creep.

PCDVD [Fable - The Lost Chapters]

Ya I know its an old games but heck last time I can't play coz don't hav gud graphic card.
This game get 9.5/10 , -0.5 coz the skill slots are troublesome to use. I play this game with gamefaq guide or else I will quite confuse in the quest and the finding of silver key hehe :)

Jokes of the week

Italy

Korea

Malaysia

Singapore

China

Germany

Hong Kong

Indonesia


Driff ,I lol'ed hard at Indonesia haha

Feb Wallpaper

Like it :)

I change my wallpaper monthly so I will no get bored easily when start up my computer.

I get from this site http://www.animewallpapers.com/

PCDVD [Titan Quest]

Luv this game very much,feel nostalgia when playing this kind of games coz its bring back my memory when playing diablo.
This game come with expansion Immortal Throne. many updates though, I give 8/10 for this game -2 because the skill doesn't show much graphic effects.